Here goes nothing. I'm gonna try to tell my story. Please forgive me if I'm long-winded because I am a writer and working on it.

I was six years old when my step-father starting molesting me. I was basically his mistress. I did not know until much later that my biological mother knew what was going on. It breaks my heart that a person could be so evil that she doesn't stop a crime done with her consent. It happened daily for the next ten years until I married young to get away from home. From the fire into the frying pan, trust me. I was told that if "I told Mom they would put him in jail and I would be taken away for good." It is a wonder the things that perps can tell children but believe even at that age you worry.

This perp was around until I was married and had one child and one on the way. He came to my husbands' trailer and told my husband that "I was cheating on him" and I just snapped. I picked him up by the shirt collar and physically threw him out of my house. The next time I saw him was in his casket. I only went to the funeral ---- well I'm not sure why I went.

I feel that it is imperative to name your abuse and I feel also that part of healing is to confront your abuser. I know though you have do that safely. My second husband that I married now sits in a Florida Department of Corrections cell for life with no parole. I prosecuted him even though it was hell. But I knew that my children needed that confrontation to heal.

I since have run across many, many children that I went with them to tell their parents and I have heard them many times their children, "I don't believe you".

Now I know incest has been around since bible times but it is still wrong. Anyway you look at it, it is wrong. Society should be helping these children instead of turning their back on them.

Most relationships in abuse (I would like to learn the statistics on this fact) will stay with the abuser because they hope it will get better. However, I can attest to the fact that it doesn't.

I am now married because I need the medical that comes with the relationship. He is a Peabody retiree and therefore, comes with good insurance. God doesn't know coincidents; I believe everything happens for a reason.

Thank you for listening to my long......story.
It feels like it has been a lifetime...........